August 26, 2011
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*oh my god. i just experienced actually losing a draft and i was going so well too!
i was sayingggg,
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oh yeah, i realise what usually happens before i end up on wonderwalled.wordpress.com. i exhaust usual time-wasting internet banalities.
1. facebook: look up old friend’s profiles and realise i have no clue who’re the people writing on their walls. then i feel so sorry that our friendship is at it’s current state and experience a moment of regret. but i know i don’t deserve to play it out like i’m a victim, i don’t stay in touch cause i’m lazy and i don’t enjoy the awkward ‘how’s life….’ when we finally meet. it’s a lousy way of showing how much i care huh. (make mental note to consciously keep in touch with old friends)
2. blog-hopping: my way of living vicariously through others. you’ll be surprised how much i make do with virtual living, it seriously feel like i’m out/i eat nice food/i shop as much as them.
3. distracted internet surfing: referring to aimless, pointless google-ing of pretty actresses, funny videos and trailers, tidbits of trivia like ‘what are the types of steak’ and ‘sicily, italy’ and ‘top chef season 9′.
(by the way, this essay is turning out completely different from what i wrote before it was all GONE. i just remember writing points 1,2,3 but the words are now totally different. this is not easy. i can now empathize with writers and their premise on the importance of inspiration.)
so anyway, today i figured that sometimes you just gotta type your heart out no matter if you’re happy or sad. it just feels nice to find a string of words that accurately describe whatever’s going on in your head. especially when you’re not in the field of creative writing, and your sentences usually go like this, the parameters was obtained from… it’s just so good when i can do thisssss. ha ha 
on a random note, i wanna be that fair and have that hair and tie it with that ribbon.
